ㅋㅋㅋ.
They're finally back from camp.
Seems like one million years didnt see them.
Seems like they enjoyed camp a lot ! :D
Feel happy for them.
Thank Daddy God.
I bet they'll be so excited and pumped up to share with me tmrw!

STARBUCKS JAVA CHIPS TMRW :DDDDDDD
I hope i can get it.
HAHA. I waited for one week.

Been staying at home almost the whole week.
Monday - went out with clique.
Tuesday - home
Wednesday - home
Thursday - visit my cousin who came back from America for a while
Friday - home
Saturday(today) - home
I think Daddy's trying to tell me that i should spend more time on myself and my family.
I really did quite a lot of stuffs this week.
Thank You Daddy.
I know You won't shortchange me just because i didnt go for camp.
:D

I was packing my stuffs just now and saw many things.
I saw many things that reminded me of the past when i was still a kid.
I felt like crying when i recall those fond memories.
Fond memories of our whole family always spending our Sundays together.
We'll definitely have family day on sunday.
Daddy will drive us out and we'll be so happy.
We had dinner together every single day.

Look at us now.
Empty house with occasional laughter from the whole family.
I really miss those times.
I miss you, Daddy.
I know it's been hard on you to earn money for the family.
But i only get to see you once in a while.
There're more of unhappiness and worries than laughter and sharing.
More of quarrellings with jie and lesser of concerning for each other.

Daddy God,
I know that once one in the family is saved, the whole family is saved.
I've been holding on to this.
I know very well that You are the almighty yet loving Daddy who always keep Your promises.
I know You'll save every single one of my loved ones and heal the wounds created in the process of the quarrellings.
I know You ♥ me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM RYEOWOOK!
생일 축하 김려욱!
슈퍼주니어's 막내

Okay, i broke my promise of updating frequently.
I had my own reasons.

Common tests.
FINALLY OVER.
HAHA. Mugging like some crazy person.
Thank God for Jesus.
If not i'll be stressful decrease instead of restful increase.
HEHE.
I rewarded myself with FOODFOODFOOD.
HAHA.
Andand, not forgetting Mayday, 五月天.

It's actually some celebration thing by this company, BWL.
My mom managed to get 2 free tickets from her friend.
And since got 五月天 and it's free, why not go?
HAHA.
First person who came to my mind: EMILIA QUEK.
We waited 3 hours before seeing 五月天 la!
We sat there super patiently waiting for their company's award thingy to end.
I didnt know the celebration thing would be so draggy.
Reached there around 645 and seated around 7.
So we waited from 7, sitting patiently until 10.
Finally 五月天 came out!
For more than an hour okay.
Damn shiok, damn high (Y).
It's like attending almost half of 五月天's concert!

I think 五月天 rocks la.
seriously.
They survived in showbiz for around 10years.
10 YEARS LEH.
Pro right.
And they compose their own songs.
Unlike new singers who only know how to sing -.-
Some of the new singers nowadays really cannot make it one sia.
Release less than 2 album jiu K.O already.
Never ever see them again after 2 albums.

But, my 슈퍼주니어 the best ♥
SUPPORT THEIR NEW ALBUM, BONAMANA.
Still crazy over Sorry Sorry?
Im sorry, it means you're outdated.
HAHA.
I think sorry sorry kinda irritating when you hear it from someone who can't sing.
It's like everyone's imitating it in a bad way.
Spoiling the song.
HAHA.
must hear: BONAMANA and BOOMBOOM.
BOOMBOOM is the song playing in the background now.
A lot of people told me: BONAMANA sounds like indian song.
HAHA.
Actually, kind of la.
I think cause of the beat.
HAHA.

ROAR.
I WANT MY STARBUCKS.
SUNDAY FASTER COME.
I MISS LOUISA, SHANA, BEAVER, CHARMAINE, PEARLYN, YUKI, SHARON, AILIN, JANEY, ..........................
(those who i didnt mention your names, it's cause im too lazy. not that i forgot you. hehe)
Like one million years never see them.
FASTER COME BACK SHOPPING WITH ME!

SHERMIN ONG!
I WANT GO SHOPPING WITH YOU TOO!
YOU EVIL BUSY BUNNY.

i'll try to update frequently la.
note: T-R-Y, TRY.
:D

Christ and I are one. I can never be separated from Christ, my "head" from whom comes all the
supply for your body — all the power, wisdom, prosperity and health. As He is, so am I in this world!

P/s: I packed my room, finally :D

I realised that i cant keep all my "accounts" updated.
HAHA.
It's either i keep updating my lj or keep updating my twitter or something else.
For me it's a good thing uh.
Means im not addicted. (Y)

i think my lj's kinda dead and it bores people.
So i decided that i'll try to post something once in a while.
Sorry for letting you guys stare at my chio flower background and my HOT Super Junior.
HAHA.

Anyway, I was talking to Charmaine to update myself with my tutorials.
And i realised Im super blessed.
I've a complete family (although my parents are naggy and my sister's a chaoahlian, HAHA)
I've precious schoolmates that are always there whenever i need help in academic matters.
I've a precious clique of secondary school friends who are constantly trying to meet up and strengthen our friendship even when everyone's all across Singapore.
I've a lovely and blessed bunch of church friends which i call NPCG who are like Family to me and always constantly pointing me back to Jesus and reminding me of my identity in Christ.
Most importantly,
I'm the child of the almighty King who sent His only begotten Son, Jesus to die for me.
So heart warming.
I feel so contented.

CTs are starting soon.
Nowadays, more and more people falling ill.
"Daddy God, I Thank You that You sent Jesus, Your one and only begotten Son to die for us on the cross, carrying all our illness, sins and diseases that we might enjoy life and life more abundantly. I proclaim that we're all healed in the name of Jesus and that we shall not suffer anymore because of the precious blood of Jesus Christ. In the name of Jesus, i pray, AMEN."

I've been keeping this in mind:
"The devil's attacking you because He's jealous that You're strong. And after you've triumphed over him, You'll be stronger and grew from glory to glory."
This was what Charmaine Valerie Misson told me when i told her about what happened to me.

Always remember, you're His beloved. Therefore,
"the LORD will make you the head and not the tail; you shall be above only, and not be beneath." Deuteronomy 28:13
"for the battle is the LORD’s, and He will give you into our hands.”1 Samuel 17:47

BLESSED BIRTHDAY JUSTIN CHUA, TINTIN! :D

HOHOHO.
I havent been posting for super uber duper long time.
Decided to come back to "renovate" and say hello.
It's not really fantastic cause i suddenly lost interest cause i cant find background that i like :(
LOL.
But my lj's dead la.
Nobody really reads it.

School's been pretty fun w awesome friends around.
Thank God i have them! :D

Time flies, week 4 of school ended.
Look forward to arrow service!
HAHA.
Tutu joining us.

Super Junior came out with their 4th album!
Finally they are back with full 13 people lah! :D


I wanna buy a lappy case.
I need $$.
Should i buy it?
It's handmade and i can choose whatever design i want.
The quality is (Y).
It's around $38.
Should i should i?
Idk!

Jesus, You reign.
Forever King of all.

ROAR.
The IRRITATING devil has been chewing on my OH-SO-NICE leg which is covered by dust.
Thank You Jesus for Pastor Prince.
HAHA.
My feet was washed and wiped during midweek.
Feel so refreshing and shiok.
Okay, for non NCC people, it's not literally la.
HAHA.
My feet was washed : hear about the Word
Wiped : hear about God's righteousness and grace.

Last week's been the most "emo" week okay.
I thank God for Louisa Wong! ♥
HAHA.
She was there to listen to me like how Jesus listens to us.
Many loves okay :D

Im starting to feel the inner transformation in me.
Im more dependent on Daddy God now instead of using self efforts.
I've been super conscious about my diet.
I've been trying very hard to stop eating many food.
But now, no more!
HAHA.
So many mouth-watering food in Singapore waiting for me.
How can i miss out the enjoyment?
I dont have to be conscious about the calories and everything.
Because it shall be God's efforts, not my self efforts!
All the fats and calories shall go to Jesus.
I will be slim in the name of Jesus!
HAHA. AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN.

I just cant stop praising Daddy God man.
He's such a loving Father that loves us so much.
So much that He sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ to die for our sins.
We get the "spoils" of Jesus' dying and suffering for us.

When i was brushing my teeth the past few days,
i've been thinking about me entering NPCG.
I remembered my first time with the CG.
I agreed to join them for dinner.
And then, i met lovely people like Louisa Wong and Shana.
[Sorry ah beaver, i knew you like 1 year plus ago already. HAHA]
And now, i know so many of them.
I feel so loved to be in NPCG.
It's like we're all different people from different sec schools with different family backgrounds and age.
It's so amazing how we care and love each other.
I was talking to Louisa's friend the last CG dinner.
Me: Oh yea, tell you something. I actually just joined the CG like not long ago. Less than half a year.
Louisa's friend: Really? You seem like you know them so long ago.

Like i've always said, the friendship between church friends and normal school friends is so so so so so different!
I love it when we have random meet-ups.
Be it lunch, dinner, going home together or gym sessions.
I'm always more than willing to meet them.
Wanna know why?
Because............




WE ARE THE BELOVED CHILD OF DADDY GOD.
AND WE KNOW THAT HE LOVES US MANYMANY.
SO WE LOVE ONE ANOTHER MANYMANY LIKE HOW JESUS LOVES US :D

Hehe.
XOXO <3

Thank You for the cross, Lord.
Thank You for the price You paid.
Bearing all my sin and shame,
In love You came and gave amazing grace.
Thank You for this ♥, Lord.
Thank You for the nail-pierced hands. Washed me in Your cleansing flow, now all i know.
Your forgiveness and embrace...

- Worthy is the lamb, Hillsong United

My tears rolled down my cheeks for You, Jesus.
Only for You my dearest Jesus...
Really Thank You for everything little things You do, did, had done and are doing for me.
No words can describe my gratefulness to You.
Daddy God, You're the only one who is willing to let Your one and only Son die for a wretch like me.

ARGH.
Im empty.
But Daddy God filled me up again.
But only 75%.

Oh yea,
Im not HER who keeps lj-ing about you.
So dont worry yea.
Cause this is my lj where i write all my feelings.
And i doubt you will read it, which i hope you wont.

You keep appearing back into my life again and when i feel so happy that you're back, you went away again.
It's like you made my life upside down.
Im struggling, still.
Im struggling to keep myself awake, to not keep hoping that you'll go back to what we were.
But each time i told myself that, it's harder to let go.
Im seriously too used to having you around.
I sound like im in love with you but i am NOT.
So dont worry yea.
It's just that...........
^&*%^&*(^(^$&(*%^(*#&()^$_*@()^%&*^$&*
ARGH
I feel like smashing my lappy.

Pastor preached about forgiving.
Im contradicting myself.
I know very well that Daddy God had forgiven me of my sins so, i can forgive others.
I dont feel forgiving now.
Is it that im not forgiving you,
or is it that im not forgiving myself?
I DONT KNOW.
As each day passes on, i feel more confused.
I wanna let everything out.
I already vomited everything out to ______.
______ was nice enough to listen to me.
But i still feel ^(^#*$^&*(^#(&#Y$&(.

This week hasnt been a good one for me.
But i know Jesus is here for me.
Charmaine told me: "You feel that you're being attacked by the devil because it proves that you're strong."
I totally agree man.
I think im super uber strong now.
Thats why for one whole week, the devil trying to attack me.
Im still fighting back.
But after what Pastor said today,
I know that i can't win by my self effort.
I need Jesus.........................................................

ROAR.
I seriously feel like a big time loser now man.
Thank God that my livejournal is not popular.

It's been really great knowing you and all.
It's nice to text you everyday.
Every morning when i wake up, your texts assures me that i always have a close friend there for me.
But i think i take things for granted yea.
I screwed our friendship up.
I created more misunderstandings.

I told myself that one day, you'll just leave.
But it's just too fast.
Or maybe it's just that i dont wanna let this special friendship go.
I really treasure you a lot as someone i can really talk to.
Now, i feel empty. I feel that i have nothing.
I really want us to be like what we used to be.
But i know you dont want to.
Perhaps,
Perhaps it's just me.
It's just me again.
I just wanna let you know that I'm happy being your close friend.
A friend that shares everything and anything with you.
But it seems like all these are impossible from today onwards.
Im not like your previous girlfs who are those xiaomeimei.
From the beginning i knew that you're just my friend and we'll be just purely good friends.
I thought you didnt mind what people say too.
But it seems like im wrong.
Im wrong, really wrong.
I assumed too much.
I think too highly of myself.
Now the ugly side of me is revealed and it kinda scared you off.
How great man.

Just when i needed a friend like you,
during the darkest moments of my life.
You chose to treat me coldly.
You chose to leave me alone.
You chose to keep a distance away from me.
Jesus, I dont want all these.
I hate goodbyes man.
Especially goodbyes in friendships.

Thanks for hurting me first just because you are afraid.
It;s been really very selfish of you.
I cant move on. I dont wanna move on.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AXEL!

School's being pretty fun.
WIth Archie, Brenda, Sureerutn, Charmaine, new friends, NPCG and random meet ups with DPA people.
I miss NPP lahhhhhh.
ROAR.
haha.
But anyway, webcamming is the best stuff on Earth man.
HAHAHAHA.


The advantage of having friends using macbook:
You dont have to use your own one.
HAHAHHA :D

This is how crazy we can get okay.
Dont mess with us, we dont bite. We're nice :D

Charmaine Wong told me to update more. HAHA.
My LJ is not dead okay.
it's taking a break from my nonsense.
But i think my LJ hates Charmaine now.
Because i shall update more nonsense.
HAHAHA.

I'll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned.
In awe, for the One who gave it all.
So i'll stand, my soul Lord to You surrendered.
All I am is Yours.

I feel like pouring my heart out but i cant.


HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY LOUISA WONG, AMINO :D
Daddy God and Jesus loves you manymany.
Me love you many many too! ♥

Today's definitely not a good day for me.
First, i woke up late so i rushed out.
Then i realised i forgot to bring my phone.
After that, lecture halfway, my lappy no batt.
Then i realised i forgot to bring my charger.
How great huh?

Something happened.
Although it's a small stuff but it matters a lot to me.
I hurts my heart a lot.
Like seriously.
I may look like i dont care but i actually love my family a lot.
Like really a lot.
At times i may be impatient.
At times i may find my parents naggy.
But i know that Home will always be my Home.

I really couldnt take it anymore.
I just had to burst everything out.
I wanted you to listen to me.
But you couldn't.
I feel horrible.
Idk why.

Jesus save me.
Take away the quarellings and hurt away from my family, Lord.

Jesus I believe in You.
Jesus I belong to You.
You're the reason that I live.
The reason that I sing.
With all i am.

It's been long since i cried my heart out.
When was my last time?